Iskandar - Z ; Whatever That Means

Semester examinations are coming. I got to take 2 weeks off of work so i can study. Besides that, relative's chalet coming up during the exam week's weekend. Which means the last time i work is on the Chinese new year holidays. After that is ultimate mugging for exams, chalet and once exams are over, its Gravical at SMU.

4 days of competition. Its 4 days if i get to the finals. If i am unable to proceed to the finals, then maybe I'll go down to watch the finalists climb. I need the experience and exposure. I sure am going to do my best. Get my par amongst the other climbers and my level of standard too. One month left to train for that. The following weekend is Boulderactive at NUS.

But after Gravical is the start of attachment on Monday. I don't know where I'm posted or whatever. But i cannot really work at MacD because of the strict schedule I'm having. I can't work for 4 weeks in a row. I need to make it up to myself and give it all during weekends. Money will be an issue at this period of time.

But for the love of climbing, i will sacrifice a bit.

A new journey awaits me.

A new mission is about to embark.

A new goal about to be achieved.

Now is the time. I feel satisfied, i feel content, i feel the need.

Fixing out the plans and see what i can do. I'm going silent. I'm being quiet. I'm getting lonesome.

PS: This is not a sad post.

I shouldn't have seen what i saw. Though its a nice thing to look at, it wasn't a pleasant thing to observe. Every possibility and probability ran through my head. But my logic just says no to every possibility i wanted it to be. Instead, the logic is saying yes to every possibility i did not want it to be. Finding something like that wasn't easy or common.

People say if you don't know what you are feeling, you're in love. I'm having mixed feeling therefore I'm not in love.

Its been a while since i said this but i don't know what to do next.

Just let it be cos you're supposed to be my bro-to-be and you will be.

This is  story about a prisoner named Iskandar, together with 3 of his friends Suhaili, Nasrul & Adi. They are prisoners who are forced to be slaves. Loading and unloading heavy rice sacks between lorries and storage rooms. But with a strong will, they are determined to get back the freedom they crave. Not stopping at anything even if it meas losing their lives. Armed guards everywhere they go. Ready to shoot once danger or threat are sensed.

So the prisoners made up a fight in the storage room, knowing that the guards will not risk shooting at their ration in that room. So when the guards came to stop the fight, Iskandar, Suhaili, Nasrul & Adi stormed the guards and brought them down. Taking their guns and ammunitions, they threatened the guards to call the General, the head of the communists. The General came into the room and was shocked to see guns pointed in his direction by the very prisoners he held captive.

Iskandar threatened to shoot him if he does not make the call to get him what he wants. So the General agreed. He then demanded 5 airplanes for all the prisoners to get out of the prison within the hour. After the call, everyone waited with the anxiety and excitement to get back to their own families. The plane arrived at the specified place in the specified timing. Everyone headed out with M16 assault rifles just like in a war. The whole lot of the prisoners got onto the planes group by group.

Just when about most of the prisoners were in the planes, one plane took off and immediately crashed onto the other planes, causing explosions, injuries and death to a lot of the prisoners. The 4 friends now realised that the general called their own planes and their own pilots to come and kill us all in that way. The communists then opened fire. The prisoners who are still alive fought back with all they have and all they can.

It became a war. The prisoners fighting for freedom, the communists fighting for fun. Rifles fired across every grass in the battlefield. Grenades were exploding like firecrackers. Bloods of the injured flowed like a river. But the bullets still continued to pierce through the people it desire to. The prisoners fought to their death. The thrill of being in a war, dying alongside your bestfriends and the relief of waking up saying "I'm alive".

My friends, this story is the dream i dreamt of while sleeping on the night of Wednesday, 20th January 2009.

Unlike my usual Sunday, i did not sleep at all throughout the 9 hours of work from 11pm to 8am. Maybe because of the people preparing for the event that morning. After work, ate nasi lemak first. People want to give a treat so i just go ahead la. Then went home, use laptop for a while then slept at 11am. Woke up again at 4pm, watched a movie and off to my aunty house to deliver some thing. After all i am the delivery boy.

Its always good to go there cos Haqish will be there to make my day. Its been a long time since i saw that rascal. Glad to see him once again. He's grown up a bit. But he is becoming more of a "kurang ajar" boy. Like becoming a norm for kids nowadays. Good thing his brain is developing faster than his age. Smart boy i should say. At 6 years old, he can speak chinese, malay and english. Pretty impressive. Still naughty as ever though. Difficult to change that.

He is missing the times he had at my home. He even asked me to take him home. Well if the time is good, i will. =))

If you had one choice out of three. I'll let you choose one out of three. I'm taking one out of three.

Tioman or Bintan or Langkawi

Tioman offers resorts, spas, snorkelling, diving, waterfalls, trekking, dinner by the beach and things like that. Not much shopping if going tioman though. Shopping just completes the holiday. Without it, we're not done yet man.

Bintan has karting, canoeing, sailing, diving, kayaking, fishing, jet skiing, knee boarding, snorkeling, surfing and more water sports. Shopping is also avaiblable. But not sure whether its flea market or posh malls. Not forgetting great dining too. Hmm currently bintan sounds so good.

Langkawi does not fare any less. The beaches are the best and spas, dining, diving, snorkeling, island tours, yatch tours and also good hotels. Based on what i've heard, the shopping might be good too.

So whats the choice guys? Personally, i think i'll choose Bintan. =)

Today, the 5th of January 2010, I was supposed to go to school to finish up the project. But yesterday, we foresee that we had no more work to do. we done all we can, its up to the EEE to do whats left of it. So we decided to play Left 4 Dead 2 instead. But at the end, we didn't even go for L4D2. Because of that, i didn't know what to do. I watched Couples Retreat on my lappy which i downloaded yesterday. Finished at 1pm and had no more movies. So i thought of something to do.

It suddenly struck me that i need to make my Identity Card. It was 1pm, a Tuesday and I'm free. So why not go ICA right? So i went to get myself ready, fill my stomach & off i went. While riding along BKE, i recalled if i needed my birth certificate because i did not bring it along. I just gambled with it & just went anyway. I reached, went to 3rd floor & to the counter, given a ticket number, served, wada wada and i was done just before 3pm. I parked my bike with an invalid parking coupon.

As long as it looks like got coupon can already la. Thought of eating sup tulang at beach road but didn't have appetite to eat. So had ice cream. After that i went back home. Reaching bukit panjang, i wanted to go somewhere else. Just not home. I called Suhaili, sms Jerry, sms Adi. All busy. So i walked along the bangkit market. 2 rounds there then i went to Bukit Panjang Plaza. Walked at every level and every store i needed to. After that went to West Mall. Again i walked every floor and every store i needed to. Then its already 6pm. So just go home la. Went home, facebook a bit, then sleep.

Now going JB.

Boring isn't it?

There you go. The way a new year should be taken. I don't think we have to change just because its a new year. If we need to change, we just change. Why wait till new year? If there must, make some goals to be achieved by the year. Last year, my goals was to pass my bike license and own a bike. Mission accomplished. These are the highlights of 2009 for me.

1. Still work at Pizza Hut

Started in Nov 08. Ended in Sept 09. Fucked up manager.

2. Bought my first helmet

After going thru many lessons using BBDC helmet, i decided to take my last one and my TP using my own helmet.

3. Celebrate Jerry birthday

Somehow confused over the correct date but eventually i was right. We celebrated after dinner at Lot 1.

4. Got my class 2B license

Together with Jerry, i passed my TP on 16th Feb. The feeling is great.

5. First time riding on the road legally

Sent my first order in a pizza hut bike. Was nervous but didnt break down. Thanks to the rider IC who gave me the chance. The manager still think I wasn't ready.

6. Start going to JB bike shops

Didnt have a bike yet but followed Pizza Hut friends and Adi to the bike shop. Eventually its the same shop i go to repair my bike.

7. Celebrate Suhaili, Alus, Ayid birthday

Everything done at Denise's condo with canadian pizza. Three of them was forced to dive into the swimming pool where Alus fell into the water & Ayid fell in love.

8. Went for 19 out of 20 area HRC

Spent so much time in Camp Resilience, i only missed area 17. Great experience with fellow trainers and cadets.

9. Saving $1000 to buy a bike

Worked for 6 weeks with only 1 or 2 days off per week. Just to save money to buy a bike.

10. Celebrate Adi birthday

Went to laser quest at HomeTeamNS, a movie at Jurong Point and cake cutting at a park at CCK with WeiMing, Battya and Hamizan.

11. Bought a bike

Like finally! 6th June. Bought the bike but had to wait 4 days before i could ride it legally. 11th June was my first day with my bike.

12. First fall from my bike

Didnt really remember the date but it was a wet Wednesday afternoon where i fell just two weeks after i bought my bike.

13. First of many FYP meetings

Called in by Victor & Erwin to group with Hafiz & Ariff. Started in May lasting till 2010 poly open house or even later.

14. Stalked people to an extreme

Stalked so much, i think i can become a private investigator. Did so much, i lost a friend. Stupid girl.

15. Celebrate Faizal birthday

Surprised him and ate Pastamania at West Mall. Cut the cake at a playground. Nasrul also introduced his girlfriend to all of us that day.

16. Fasting for full month

Fasted for all 29 days without miss. Not the first time but still proud of it.

17. Celebrate Zimah birthday

Break fast at Madjack and went to geylang to walk and buy food.

18. Start work at MacDelivery

The end of Pizza Hut, now working at Fajar Mac which is going to last very very long. Maybe even till i work full time.

19. First Raya with a bike

Sadly my family didn't go out much due to some stupid reasons.

20. First road trip to Melaka

Rode my own bike across the North-South Highway. Sadly, its not something to remember though.

21. Suffered the 3rd accident

Fell at 120km/h on the way home from Melaka. That whole month was all on my recovery and bike recovery

22. Celebrate Iqa & Nasrul birthday

Adi tricked Iqa, Ayda tricked Nasrul. Had dinner at Causeway Point Pizza Hut. Probably the first outing that wasn't planned by me. Credits to Faizal.

23. Created my own Onsugar account

Yeah just had to have one.

24. Celebrate Ayda & my birthday

Nice tricks done to manipulate me & Ayda. Had a great day from morning to night with the best peeps.

25. Took part in Climb On 09

Dyno Competition. WoW. My first comp since 2002.

26. Went to karaoke

Had a lot of karaoke sessions mostly with Adi. Some with the CIs, one with the Pizza Hut Riders.

27. Studied hardcore

Didn't work for a week but studied so much for MST. MST only sia. Semester exam how?

28. Nearly bought a scrambler

I seriously did. I was in love with that scrammer. The plate was a bonus. Now its bought by someone else so i'd want to keep it off my mind.

29. FYP nearly done

Nearly. Less than a week more. F.U.E.E.E

30. Still unattached

19 years and still counting. Well nothing bad about this. Taking my own sweet time on this matter.

The year 2010 stores another 365 days of surprises. Good or bad, its up to God. I'll just take it like any other day i have.

I can visualise my goals already. Already having what i need to kick off, i think i can make it easy. I hope to make it easy. I am going to make it easy. The bike is currently free from problems, free from summons, free from dust but not free from payment though. Nevertheless i still am able to reach my goals. With FYP going to be out of the way in just over one week time, i will have more free time to build up the puzzle pieces to reach my goals. God help me.

Finishing FYP & preparing for the Polytechnic open house from 7th to 9th. Can't wait till FYP is done.

At least i can take my mind off something.